I love my naked body like few other things in the world. It is mine, to do with as I please. It carries me through this life and has allowed me many things I didn’t expect. It changes and morphs into new versions of itself and I love all of them. I decorate her with tattoos and take her out dancing. I could never be ashamed or embarrassed of her…I’m not exposed or exploited when I am naked. That would be applying someone else’s expectations onto my body…When I am naked I am not brave or vulnerable or there for you. When I am naked, I am divine.
Never tell me that you love me. I never want to hear you so much as whisper it under your breath when you think no one is listening. Never tell me in words. Tell me in stories. Tell me in heat waves and sunrises. Tell me in rainy windshields and 3am existential crises. Tell me in impulse and desire, lightning bolts, cigarette butts, and chipped paint. Teach me to look for it in the bottom of coffee cups, make me swim to the ocean floor for it, let me learn to see it in every grain of dust that floats around in the mid-morning sun. Carve it on the bottoms of tables so no one will see it unless it’s by accident. Write it in the ground again and again so that the earth will remember it long after we’re gone. If you feel the weight of it getting heavy against your solar plexus, find a new home for it. Push it into the cracks in the sidewalks and let it mend the concrete beneath our feet. Poke holes in all the walls and hide it away so that I will always hear it ticking away without any idea of where it came from. Hide it under your bed with the monsters you believed in as a kid. Pour it down the drain and let it penetrate the water supply. Keep it under your tongue so that you must be very careful not to let it escape every time you open your mouth and learn to speak only in metaphors.
My face is so dry and itchy right now, fuck you Proactive and fuck you adult acne, I can literally feel it burning the pores off of my face is this shit even legal and also why am I still using it well into my 20’s?